Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Tarot Spread: Past Life
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Michael
So I thought i'd post something I just came across. I did this spread 9/5/08!
1. Page of Cups represents my Mind in a past life. To me this states that I was a philosophical type who was probably quite young in mind but seemed quite old. I was full of new and exciting ideas. I was a socialite and a romantic at heart. The overal mindset is fresh and new. Artistic and the love for theories, new ideas, and communicating such with others.
2. Judgement Reversed represents my body in a past life. This one is a bit tricky for me as I am not quite sure how I see judgment reversed playing into my body aspect. A part of me wants to say I was a bit sickly or weak? I feel that I was average sized,but with some sort of ailment but nothing that necessarily was seen physically. It was like an internal something. Possibly something relating to the lung area.
3. Queen of Swords Reversed resonates with my spirit in a past life. I see this as meaning that My spirit was a bit vengeful. Very swift to act, very coy and manipulative. This to me really tells me I could of come across as being a bit arrogant and well airy. At the same time I feel that she could also mean I was in my element when it was "chaotic." And looking at the other cards especially with the Undercurrent I can see why this card would show up in my spirit. I was scorned and I held on to it. I held on to the death of my mother as I feel the circumstances were not what they seemed. I did state I felt she died at birth but I think she was killed after giving birth. All of this would really get to my spirit definitely and make me a bit spiteful? But with such energy comes the opposite too.
4. The Fool reversed represents my Birth.The first things that actually come to me when I see into the fool reversed relating to my birth are complications which then could resonate with the possible illness/weakness I was feeling with my judement card. Which in turn I also feel could be that I was born premature and that my mother died during childbirth. I feel that my birth was not necessarily wanted. I'm getting mixed emotions from this. Half wanted and half not. There was some sort of mystique concerning my birth. I can see people kind of rushing in secret which I am not quite sure what that means but the birth was very secretive.
5. The Sun reversed relates to my undercurrent. I think that this tells me that there was a huge rivalry of sorts between me and another or a group of people. I feel that I was in a sense outcasted and so everything that I did someone tried to outshine me.I do feel that I had some sort of great idea, invention, or something that would change how my people looked at me but I was betrayed and whatever it was, it was stolen from me and credited to another so this happened a lot during my lifetime and it was a reason for me feeling as judgement reversed, a bit lowly and just weak.
6. 3 of cups is my attitude.Now this card as my attitude i find a bit comical considering what we have stated thus far BUT I guess when you are trying to put a whole person together you will get so many different energies. To me this says that my attitude at times was very celebratory. I tried to really be happy and was for the most part. When I was in my element I was joyous. Even when the others would try and bring me down, I did let that effect me but at the same time I knew in my soul that All was as it should be and that they would get theirs *haha Queen of swords reversed maybe?* and I would shine when My day would come.
7. 6 of Wands relates to my actions in this life. The word Virtuous comes to mind when I see this card. I feel that there are those who did not think I would amount to anything and really did want to see me struggle and not make anything of myself but I found my place amongst my people and I am here standing up for what I believe and representing those who I truly speak for.This tells me that my actions were pure and passionate and that they paid off in the end as my true spirit was able to show. My True character. This actually reminds me of the ugly duckling who turned into the beautiful swan.
8. King of Pentacles Reversed resonates with my Death. Now this is interesting. This tells me that I was fairly old at my time of death and that I was betrayed by someone. SO I could have been killed by a loved one most likely a man. A Loved one or someone very close to me. Someone who I felt akin to and was able to clearly communicate with. I put a lot of faith in this person only to be stabbed in the back by them. The death I am not quite picking up on. It is obviously something physical. I was killed. It could of been a beating, a stabbing, etc..
9. The Chariot brings the past into this life and how it relates to family/home and the early years. I really think what comes forth in this is that Nothing stays the same and that I must be open to accepting new opportunities. I feel that this resonates with how as much LAW that was in my life nothing ever stayed the same and nothing stays the same to this day. There is a constant change but The one thing that is similar is Me. I am here in this body but a conduit of change.
10. Queen of Wands deals with work and possessions. To me this resonates with my actions in the 6 of wands. I have learned to be a passionate leader, someone who is not always afraid to take charge and be creative, to start new ideas and to go for the gold when I am given coal to work with. I also feel that this card brings a good business sense to the mix so I must of been some sort of business inclined person in the past life that is discussed. I am career oriented and just very professional. I am a very loyal and trustworthy person which in my past seemed to have been a flaw as it was my downfall but then again I seemed to have an exciting and challenging life at the same time.
11. 5 of Wands reversed deals with Love and relationships. To me I feel that the fear of being hurt in this life stems from the past as I feel All of the lies, betrayal etc in my past life has shown itself in my present concerning my love/relationship status. I feel the 5 of wands reversed is saying that a lot of people *at least the way i feel* do not take you for who you are and want more then what they actually say and are just full of lies. Something that needs to be broken.
12. Page of Wands reversed is a positive influence from the past into this life. My ability to be one with change and allow for things to happen even though I may of wanted to go route A I was taken on Route B but with a better respect for where my destination led me. I think that is what I have taken from the past into this present life. My ability to understand that everything happens for a reason and if something doesn't work out that just means something else lay ahead for me.
13. Wheel of Fortune is a negative influence that I have brought with me here. I think that everything that I achieved in my past, my success, my wisdome and knowledge in a sense has passed over here in the now but the negative connotation with it is that I at times expect people to understand much more then they Might and get frustrated a bit fast when They cannot comprehend certain things. It could leave me sounding cocky and possibly arrogant.
14. 8 of Wands is a positive influence in the now from the past life. My ability to learn things at a fast rate, to go with the flow and just move around and do what needs to be done is something that I feel this card is talking about. New Ideas, new beginnings, being able to just start fresh and do whatever I put my energies to.
15. The High Priestess is supposed to be a negative influence card. I cant really say my true feelings on this card as I would probably get scolded so I wont. Anyways I feel that this card in a negative aspect tells me that I bring a lot of trust issues to the table. Its hard for me to trust people even though that I am quite intuitive and can read people well I have an
underlying trust factor even if I feel/know they are telling me the truth. Its not just trusting other people but trusting in myself in what I can do and in who I really am. Its something that I work on daily.
16. The Star Reversed is a positive influence. Taking its reversed aspect and turning it into a positive I feel its my ability in the past life being able to go through all of that hurt all of that challenge and come out on top or at least be well rounded and be able to be who i am amongst the masses and own my space. That is what I Feel it brings to the now.
17. King of Swords is a negative influence. I think this card relates to how I died. To me this resonates with the person or persons that killed me and I bring that into this life not necessarily trusting in men. I have issues with Men which I think is funny but its true. It definitely is something I am working on but I Feel that I have just been witness to the wrong types of male energies and those who have not been a good example so it instills or triggers that past life energy that reminds of the person who Killed me if that makes sense.
18 THe Moon reversed is my Challenge/Lesson of this life. I think that this card is telling me that the lesson of it all and the challenge of it all was my psychic sense. My ability or lacktherof in my past life to read people. I was betrayed a lot by people I put faith in. This card is telling me that my lesson is to learn to trust my intuition. That the whole deception etc is waning and I am able to see people clearly for who they are and to learn from that. To not go blind as I do not need to.
19. Knight of Wands reversed represents Heart. To me this tells me that My heart is timid. Its shy and its scared of being hurt as it was before. I feel that it means that I am scared of allowing anything to penetrate it.
20. 9 of Cups reversed represents Soul. This tells me that My soul needs to be taken care of. That I need to watch what I feed it. As in literal food, as in movies, books, news etc etc... I need to take care of it as it is growing and the more Junk I feed it the more Crud That will back it up.
21. 6 of Cups is sacrifice. I feel that this means I have sacrificed Love. A person who I cared about and it just couldn't work. An Ex best friend. The Loss of a lot of seemingly good people in life.
22. The World reversed is hidden influences. To me this is Ascension. Hidden influences being that my body is aggravated, feeling delayed, held back etc but its because my spirit, my energy is shifting and making way for a great big change one that is to come with great blessings.
Alrighty There is my reading. It took a lot and I'm sure I could get more detailed but that's all I can come up with right now. If you have any questions or comments please feel free to say so!
1. Page of Cups represents my Mind in a past life. To me this states that I was a philosophical type who was probably quite young in mind but seemed quite old. I was full of new and exciting ideas. I was a socialite and a romantic at heart. The overal mindset is fresh and new. Artistic and the love for theories, new ideas, and communicating such with others.
2. Judgement Reversed represents my body in a past life. This one is a bit tricky for me as I am not quite sure how I see judgment reversed playing into my body aspect. A part of me wants to say I was a bit sickly or weak? I feel that I was average sized,but with some sort of ailment but nothing that necessarily was seen physically. It was like an internal something. Possibly something relating to the lung area.
3. Queen of Swords Reversed resonates with my spirit in a past life. I see this as meaning that My spirit was a bit vengeful. Very swift to act, very coy and manipulative. This to me really tells me I could of come across as being a bit arrogant and well airy. At the same time I feel that she could also mean I was in my element when it was "chaotic." And looking at the other cards especially with the Undercurrent I can see why this card would show up in my spirit. I was scorned and I held on to it. I held on to the death of my mother as I feel the circumstances were not what they seemed. I did state I felt she died at birth but I think she was killed after giving birth. All of this would really get to my spirit definitely and make me a bit spiteful? But with such energy comes the opposite too.
4. The Fool reversed represents my Birth.The first things that actually come to me when I see into the fool reversed relating to my birth are complications which then could resonate with the possible illness/weakness I was feeling with my judement card. Which in turn I also feel could be that I was born premature and that my mother died during childbirth. I feel that my birth was not necessarily wanted. I'm getting mixed emotions from this. Half wanted and half not. There was some sort of mystique concerning my birth. I can see people kind of rushing in secret which I am not quite sure what that means but the birth was very secretive.
5. The Sun reversed relates to my undercurrent. I think that this tells me that there was a huge rivalry of sorts between me and another or a group of people. I feel that I was in a sense outcasted and so everything that I did someone tried to outshine me.I do feel that I had some sort of great idea, invention, or something that would change how my people looked at me but I was betrayed and whatever it was, it was stolen from me and credited to another so this happened a lot during my lifetime and it was a reason for me feeling as judgement reversed, a bit lowly and just weak.
6. 3 of cups is my attitude.Now this card as my attitude i find a bit comical considering what we have stated thus far BUT I guess when you are trying to put a whole person together you will get so many different energies. To me this says that my attitude at times was very celebratory. I tried to really be happy and was for the most part. When I was in my element I was joyous. Even when the others would try and bring me down, I did let that effect me but at the same time I knew in my soul that All was as it should be and that they would get theirs *haha Queen of swords reversed maybe?* and I would shine when My day would come.
7. 6 of Wands relates to my actions in this life. The word Virtuous comes to mind when I see this card. I feel that there are those who did not think I would amount to anything and really did want to see me struggle and not make anything of myself but I found my place amongst my people and I am here standing up for what I believe and representing those who I truly speak for.This tells me that my actions were pure and passionate and that they paid off in the end as my true spirit was able to show. My True character. This actually reminds me of the ugly duckling who turned into the beautiful swan.
8. King of Pentacles Reversed resonates with my Death. Now this is interesting. This tells me that I was fairly old at my time of death and that I was betrayed by someone. SO I could have been killed by a loved one most likely a man. A Loved one or someone very close to me. Someone who I felt akin to and was able to clearly communicate with. I put a lot of faith in this person only to be stabbed in the back by them. The death I am not quite picking up on. It is obviously something physical. I was killed. It could of been a beating, a stabbing, etc..
9. The Chariot brings the past into this life and how it relates to family/home and the early years. I really think what comes forth in this is that Nothing stays the same and that I must be open to accepting new opportunities. I feel that this resonates with how as much LAW that was in my life nothing ever stayed the same and nothing stays the same to this day. There is a constant change but The one thing that is similar is Me. I am here in this body but a conduit of change.
10. Queen of Wands deals with work and possessions. To me this resonates with my actions in the 6 of wands. I have learned to be a passionate leader, someone who is not always afraid to take charge and be creative, to start new ideas and to go for the gold when I am given coal to work with. I also feel that this card brings a good business sense to the mix so I must of been some sort of business inclined person in the past life that is discussed. I am career oriented and just very professional. I am a very loyal and trustworthy person which in my past seemed to have been a flaw as it was my downfall but then again I seemed to have an exciting and challenging life at the same time.
11. 5 of Wands reversed deals with Love and relationships. To me I feel that the fear of being hurt in this life stems from the past as I feel All of the lies, betrayal etc in my past life has shown itself in my present concerning my love/relationship status. I feel the 5 of wands reversed is saying that a lot of people *at least the way i feel* do not take you for who you are and want more then what they actually say and are just full of lies. Something that needs to be broken.
12. Page of Wands reversed is a positive influence from the past into this life. My ability to be one with change and allow for things to happen even though I may of wanted to go route A I was taken on Route B but with a better respect for where my destination led me. I think that is what I have taken from the past into this present life. My ability to understand that everything happens for a reason and if something doesn't work out that just means something else lay ahead for me.
13. Wheel of Fortune is a negative influence that I have brought with me here. I think that everything that I achieved in my past, my success, my wisdome and knowledge in a sense has passed over here in the now but the negative connotation with it is that I at times expect people to understand much more then they Might and get frustrated a bit fast when They cannot comprehend certain things. It could leave me sounding cocky and possibly arrogant.
14. 8 of Wands is a positive influence in the now from the past life. My ability to learn things at a fast rate, to go with the flow and just move around and do what needs to be done is something that I feel this card is talking about. New Ideas, new beginnings, being able to just start fresh and do whatever I put my energies to.
15. The High Priestess is supposed to be a negative influence card. I cant really say my true feelings on this card as I would probably get scolded so I wont. Anyways I feel that this card in a negative aspect tells me that I bring a lot of trust issues to the table. Its hard for me to trust people even though that I am quite intuitive and can read people well I have an
underlying trust factor even if I feel/know they are telling me the truth. Its not just trusting other people but trusting in myself in what I can do and in who I really am. Its something that I work on daily.
16. The Star Reversed is a positive influence. Taking its reversed aspect and turning it into a positive I feel its my ability in the past life being able to go through all of that hurt all of that challenge and come out on top or at least be well rounded and be able to be who i am amongst the masses and own my space. That is what I Feel it brings to the now.
17. King of Swords is a negative influence. I think this card relates to how I died. To me this resonates with the person or persons that killed me and I bring that into this life not necessarily trusting in men. I have issues with Men which I think is funny but its true. It definitely is something I am working on but I Feel that I have just been witness to the wrong types of male energies and those who have not been a good example so it instills or triggers that past life energy that reminds of the person who Killed me if that makes sense.
18 THe Moon reversed is my Challenge/Lesson of this life. I think that this card is telling me that the lesson of it all and the challenge of it all was my psychic sense. My ability or lacktherof in my past life to read people. I was betrayed a lot by people I put faith in. This card is telling me that my lesson is to learn to trust my intuition. That the whole deception etc is waning and I am able to see people clearly for who they are and to learn from that. To not go blind as I do not need to.
19. Knight of Wands reversed represents Heart. To me this tells me that My heart is timid. Its shy and its scared of being hurt as it was before. I feel that it means that I am scared of allowing anything to penetrate it.
20. 9 of Cups reversed represents Soul. This tells me that My soul needs to be taken care of. That I need to watch what I feed it. As in literal food, as in movies, books, news etc etc... I need to take care of it as it is growing and the more Junk I feed it the more Crud That will back it up.
21. 6 of Cups is sacrifice. I feel that this means I have sacrificed Love. A person who I cared about and it just couldn't work. An Ex best friend. The Loss of a lot of seemingly good people in life.
22. The World reversed is hidden influences. To me this is Ascension. Hidden influences being that my body is aggravated, feeling delayed, held back etc but its because my spirit, my energy is shifting and making way for a great big change one that is to come with great blessings.
Alrighty There is my reading. It took a lot and I'm sure I could get more detailed but that's all I can come up with right now. If you have any questions or comments please feel free to say so!
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Friday, December 25, 2009
Choices, Decisions, Life!
Christmas is Over! Now that I have time to breathe and think for a second I can update with what has been going on. Christmas Eve we spend with my Dads side of the family. This year it was actually really nice. It went fast and sweet and nothing really lingered. I did however, have a few drinks and I remember now why I stopped drinking. I didn't get excessively smashed or anything but it was enough to be intoxicated. It was nice but at the same time It wasn't. I don't like what it does to my energy these days. I can feel the way it actually weighs me down and has a extreme effect on my psychic senses.
So I woke up today and decided I would not have a drink for a few months at least if at all. Then, I remembered I have a New Years Eve party to go to and there will be drinks there. I do want to have a good time and I know that drinking is not necessary for me to do so but I was planning on having my last drink on New Years Eve but today I am sure I've decided not to do so. My spirit says that it is not what I need, it is not something that I benefit from and it only drags me down with lower energies that I need not surround myself with. It is not for me and I need to pay attention to this. I don't really drink often as it is. Once in a blue moon, every few months or whatnot. So Spirit speaks and I listen, no more drink for 9 months. 9 months is my challenge for myself.
I am also dedicating myself to myself. I have spent quite a lot of energy into giving of myself and my time with people taking what I have to offer for granted and really not honoring it for what it is. I do love helping and teaching but when you give 110 percent and you receive 10 percent back and are not met half way it takes its toll. So I've decided to close all my Forums and Networking sites that I run to focus on myself and my path, my practice as I cannot help others who do not wish to be helped. I wish to grow though and I can help myself. I have decided to dedicate my time working on my psychic senses and on shedding the physical weight that I have allowed to hold me back. I am working on shedding 60lbs but the number really does not matter as long as I am healthy and at my desired body level.
The Outlining and writing of the Psychic Development course I am working on is proving to be quite fun and enlightening. It is going smoothly and cant wait to finish!
Many Blessings,
Michael
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So I woke up today and decided I would not have a drink for a few months at least if at all. Then, I remembered I have a New Years Eve party to go to and there will be drinks there. I do want to have a good time and I know that drinking is not necessary for me to do so but I was planning on having my last drink on New Years Eve but today I am sure I've decided not to do so. My spirit says that it is not what I need, it is not something that I benefit from and it only drags me down with lower energies that I need not surround myself with. It is not for me and I need to pay attention to this. I don't really drink often as it is. Once in a blue moon, every few months or whatnot. So Spirit speaks and I listen, no more drink for 9 months. 9 months is my challenge for myself.
I am also dedicating myself to myself. I have spent quite a lot of energy into giving of myself and my time with people taking what I have to offer for granted and really not honoring it for what it is. I do love helping and teaching but when you give 110 percent and you receive 10 percent back and are not met half way it takes its toll. So I've decided to close all my Forums and Networking sites that I run to focus on myself and my path, my practice as I cannot help others who do not wish to be helped. I wish to grow though and I can help myself. I have decided to dedicate my time working on my psychic senses and on shedding the physical weight that I have allowed to hold me back. I am working on shedding 60lbs but the number really does not matter as long as I am healthy and at my desired body level.
The Outlining and writing of the Psychic Development course I am working on is proving to be quite fun and enlightening. It is going smoothly and cant wait to finish!
Many Blessings,
Michael
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Now playing: E.S. Posthumus - Isfahan
via FoxyTunes
Sunday, December 20, 2009
A Fool Reading
So I Am reading Rachel Pollacks "Tarot Wisdom" and at the end of each section she has a Tarot Exercise for you to do and I will be doing these exercises and posting my findings here. If you all have any perceptions you'd like to share I definitely welcome them. You may not agree with my meanings or you may agree but I love to hear about all types of interpretations as it helps me understand the Tarot even more!
A Fool Reading
Do you want to know more about your own experience of Foolishness? Here is a reading based on the Fool. As always, we shuffle the whole deck and see which cards emerge. The questions, however, revolve around the idea of the Fool.
1. How have I been a Fool in my life?
6 of Wands
Wands = Fire, Passion, Aggression, Movement
The 6 of Wands to me represents an almost arrogant nature. Almost like I know what I am, I know who I am, I know I'm great but I know that I am not appreciated by the people here so I want to be moving along into the future where I know things are amazing. Its not necessarily a conceited act its more like the "Fool" just who he is, doesnt know better but gets interpreted by others around him as things that they truly arent. This reminds me of a time when I was younger where I would get recognized and honored for all the work and creative work that I would do *almost channel* and others around me would wonder how I got what I did, and why it seemed to come so easily. So this card reminds me that I was like the fool in "school" pertaining to not necessarily knowing what I was doing but following my inner spirit and just doing so, taking that leap and going for it.
3 of Cups
Cups - Water, Emotions, Spirituality, Fluid
The three of cups is a great card especially right after the card I just pulled. It to me Balances my Fire card out. This card is all about celebration. Friendships and a meeting of like minds in celebration. When I look at this card I have memories of my best friend Tuesday and a Friend Rachel and how we would hang out all the time after beauty school and just celebrate life! We would drive around at night listening to music, letting the wind scream around us. We would practice with each other, talking to the winds, divining, and creating. This card to me implies the stage in my life where I would party quite a lot. I would be care free and allow the wild spirit to take over. Well as you can imagine when your partying at the end of the night you can end up doing pretty "Foolish" things and I can admit that I definitely did such. Nothing I regret, I would have a loose tongue and speak my truth and well everyone elses as well! lol So the three of cups brings up the party and wild spirit self and under the rule of the "Fool" it brings out the carelessness in the sense of speaking what is observed, what is seen without the filter of "tact."
Queen of Wands (Reversed)
Yet another Fire Card hmm!!!
Well to me this card is focused on the past. This card looks back at the Cups card and the First card is looking forward to this card so they are all watching the cups card in observance and yet the two wands cards are looking at each other as well! This is a enlightening card lol as I can see it as a pattern throughout my life so far. I see this as the fool of change and the fool who gets caught up in energy and doesnt know when to shut up or back down or move on. This to me reminds me of not letting go of things, holding on to things of the past and continuing to talk about it, maybe the gossip at work as well and complaining and just focusing so much on what is wrong instead of what is right. This reminds me of a current circumstance in which someone I work with is irritating and frustrating me and all I do is complain about it with another co-worker. It also brings up past memories of an old friend who could be termed stabbed me in the back in which I am still hurt by but still talk about therefore in a sense bring gossip to the table. On another note though The Queen of Wands reversed can represent an untrustworthy friend so it could go hand in hand with the person I am talking about or even my work situation where as the people involved are not to be trusted and telling me to stop acting the Fool in trust and being blind to seeing the truth and start discerning the situation to get the most from it. Basically saying Michael pull your head out of your ass!
2. How has it Helped Me?
3 of Pentacles (Connecting with the 6 of Wands)
Pentacles - Earth, Grounded, Materialistic Realm
To me the three of pentacles tells me that it has helped me to understand and work with others. This has helped me to socialize and to be able to work within a group environment. It says that I learned from that Fool experience and was able to grow from it, to really be inspired from that time in my life and to focus on goals and projects that I desired to see implemented in my future. This Earthiness that manifested from the Fire aspect of the Fool has grown, To me it tells me that It has helped me to learn to not be so Fire in which I can burn those around me or even burn out but to channel my passions by grounding and organizing and finding a structure base and surrounding myself with people who would support my beliefs and passions and share similar interests to promote growth!
2 of Cups (reversed, Connectin with 3 of Cups)
See this is a very interesting pair to me. Two water cards so very fluid, very emotional. And yes there was a point in my life especially that point in the cups aspect that it reminds me of I was VERY VERY emotional! More emotional than I thought I could be. In this aspect I feel that it has helped me to weed out relationships that no longer serve me. I gave my heart to people that did not cherish what was being given and that was my doing and I accept full responsibility for that but it has helped me to be able to balance out my emotions, to discern and to understand the toxic relationships I had during that time and to get rid of the people who no longer were in my best interest.
2 of Pentacles (Connecting with Queen of Wands reversed)
hmm another Two and another Earth card that is connecting with a Fire card. Interesting indeed.
To me the Two of Pentacles is all about juggling life and learning to find the balance in ones life. Taking from the past and looking at the future and being in the present moment just finding that balance. So to me this card in its meaning has helped me to really learn to discern my words, how I speak to people, what to get myself into and how to get myself out of something. It tells me to learn to co-operate with the flow of energy. To bite my tongue when I know I need to and to speak up when I know I should as well.
3. How has it hurt me?
The Sun (Reversed, Connects with 6 of Wands/3 of Pentacles)
Major Arcana - Big Events, Major Moment in Life, Big Challenges
To me this states that I was so passionate about my work, my plans, accomplishments and I started projects and yet didn't get fully credited for what I did, A pattern of not being taken or used for what I truly am so Others got the credit for what I do and did and I just was on the sidelines and the sense of "defeat" comes to mind. I put a lot into the work I do and This does remind me of a time ago when I did psychic training, my teacher was not what she claimed to be and so I left, I went to Massage School and the teachers there were not what they claimed and I had to leave it seems that what I get passionate about there always seems to be an obstacle in the way and I always feel defeated and now that I am writing this and reading it I can see these patterns and its giving me great insight into how to balance that out.
8 of Wands (Reversed, Connecting 3 of Cups/2 of Cups)
This hurt is still fresh with me it seems. The 8 of Wands tells me that in this situation it hurt me by really slowing me down. It brought a lot to the forefront of my life and it almost shattered me when I had to release these people and for a time it just made everything slow. My hair business slowed down, my life slowed down and almost came to a halt, everything just seemed dull. The Flame or spark of life wasn't shining bright it was dull and dim. This definitely speaks of a hibernation almost hermit period; very stagnant.
Page of Swords (Reversed, Connecting Queen of Wands RX* 2 of Pentacles)
Swords - Air, Intellect, Wisdom, Bitchy Blunt Cards
This card tells me that it has hurt me in the sense of trust. My head is with the fae, I was day dreaming and off in the clouds and not really paying attention to what is laid before me but hoping and wishing for whats to come and so making a choice or decision without fully paying attention to whats going on has really hurt me in this. It tells me that not noticing the signs of people in my life have lead to much confusion, challenge and pain.
4. Where in my life do I need to be more Foolish?
The Hermit (Reversed)
I need to be more foolish in my Inner Life. The Hermit reversed tells me I need to pay more attention to my inner workings as there are great messages being given to me now but I am not hearing or receiving them due to blockages which to me can be from work and the busy energy of the holidays. So I need to be more like the fool in this respect to be able to just connect. Not to think about it or execute a plan but to just go for it. Get crazy and allow it to come forth. To me this is the saying "Just do it." Get out of the Logical and into the Spirit and let it flow!
The Hanged Man
This card tells me I need to sit in meditation and really contemplate what is going on. Just let it unfold and rid things that no longer serve me. I need to get rid of what is toxic fully and to let it go this time and not harbor any old ill wills or energies. I am going through a huge transition and it seems like its taking quite some time and not working but the truth is that it IS working and I need to act the Fool in this and just be care free and stop taking it so seriously.
King of Wands
This tells me that I need to be like the King, be able to look out at my past and learn from my experiences but not allow them to attach to me and dictate to me. I allow the experiences to come forth and rule with a creative heart and a kind heart. To take the fun and new energy from The Fool and forge it into my serious energy of the King. To take the creative energy I have as the Fool and ignite it with the King. So I need to act more like the fool in my leadership skills, in my aspect of my life that oversees my past, and is working to build management and leadership skills.
5. Where will the Fool not serve me?
8 of Swords
The Fool will not serve me when I am physically and intellectually blinded. This tells me that if old wounds arise and blockages come forth that the Fool will not serve me in working these out.
3 of Swords (Reversed)
This tells me that the Fool will not serve me when I am recovering from this emotional heart break period. The stage in life when I am/was coming out of it, it would of not served me to act the Fool. It would of hindered my progress.
6 of Swords (yet another swords card hmm....)
This tells me that if I am making a move for a different situation in the work place that I need not act the fool. Traveling or moving on to a different job moving towards the future i need to be on my game and acting the Fool in these plans would not benefit me AT ALL!
*note: I noticed that all these cards were swords cards so I am wondering if it would not be wise to act a fool in the suit of swords lol.
6. Where do I find the Fool outside Myself?
The Moon (Reversed)
I can see the Fool in the social interaction between my Friend and Myself. I see the Fool in the clarity of when truth is finally found out and the Sun shines upon the day. When Depression Lifts and truth is seen that is where the Fool is noticed. So when the Blindfold comes off as in the 8 of Swords, the Fool is seen immediately!
Ace of Wands
The Fool can be seen in the Gifts that are presented to my creativity. When someone comes into my life and presents me something that feeds my spirit or my creative juices that is when the Fool Manifests. When my emotional status balanced out and I was given and found stability and blessing in my true friends, that is when the Fool manifested.
Ten of Pentacles
The Fool Manifest outside myself in group efforts. When my co-workers gather, when family members meet that is where the Fool can arise outside myself. I see him constantly lol.
7. What gifts does it bring me?
7 of Wands (reversed)
He brings the gift of fluidity. Instead of having to combat and fight against the flow of passion and creativity; he teaches the ability to go with the flow and to let down the war attitude and just float to the inner workings of the inner child.
Queen of Cups (Reversed)
He brings to me the Gift of being able to see the present moment and the future. He has taught me to let the past be the past and to learn from the present and to be able to harness that energy to look into the future. To finally get control of emotions and to work with them instead of against them.
Four of Wands
He brings the gift of "wholeness" of family and blessing. To me he teaches how to overcome the obstacles and gossip of the family and work life and how to live in truth and happiness with my people in my life. He brings it full circle! What a blessing!
Anyways lol I hope my ramblings made sense, Its actually brought up some interesting things for me to think about. OMG This took me forever! It has given me a lot of insight though and has taught me a lot and wow I am just amazed as to how everything unfolded! YAY!!
A Fool Reading
Do you want to know more about your own experience of Foolishness? Here is a reading based on the Fool. As always, we shuffle the whole deck and see which cards emerge. The questions, however, revolve around the idea of the Fool.
1. How have I been a Fool in my life?
6 of Wands
Wands = Fire, Passion, Aggression, Movement
The 6 of Wands to me represents an almost arrogant nature. Almost like I know what I am, I know who I am, I know I'm great but I know that I am not appreciated by the people here so I want to be moving along into the future where I know things are amazing. Its not necessarily a conceited act its more like the "Fool" just who he is, doesnt know better but gets interpreted by others around him as things that they truly arent. This reminds me of a time when I was younger where I would get recognized and honored for all the work and creative work that I would do *almost channel* and others around me would wonder how I got what I did, and why it seemed to come so easily. So this card reminds me that I was like the fool in "school" pertaining to not necessarily knowing what I was doing but following my inner spirit and just doing so, taking that leap and going for it.
3 of Cups
Cups - Water, Emotions, Spirituality, Fluid
The three of cups is a great card especially right after the card I just pulled. It to me Balances my Fire card out. This card is all about celebration. Friendships and a meeting of like minds in celebration. When I look at this card I have memories of my best friend Tuesday and a Friend Rachel and how we would hang out all the time after beauty school and just celebrate life! We would drive around at night listening to music, letting the wind scream around us. We would practice with each other, talking to the winds, divining, and creating. This card to me implies the stage in my life where I would party quite a lot. I would be care free and allow the wild spirit to take over. Well as you can imagine when your partying at the end of the night you can end up doing pretty "Foolish" things and I can admit that I definitely did such. Nothing I regret, I would have a loose tongue and speak my truth and well everyone elses as well! lol So the three of cups brings up the party and wild spirit self and under the rule of the "Fool" it brings out the carelessness in the sense of speaking what is observed, what is seen without the filter of "tact."
Queen of Wands (Reversed)
Yet another Fire Card hmm!!!
Well to me this card is focused on the past. This card looks back at the Cups card and the First card is looking forward to this card so they are all watching the cups card in observance and yet the two wands cards are looking at each other as well! This is a enlightening card lol as I can see it as a pattern throughout my life so far. I see this as the fool of change and the fool who gets caught up in energy and doesnt know when to shut up or back down or move on. This to me reminds me of not letting go of things, holding on to things of the past and continuing to talk about it, maybe the gossip at work as well and complaining and just focusing so much on what is wrong instead of what is right. This reminds me of a current circumstance in which someone I work with is irritating and frustrating me and all I do is complain about it with another co-worker. It also brings up past memories of an old friend who could be termed stabbed me in the back in which I am still hurt by but still talk about therefore in a sense bring gossip to the table. On another note though The Queen of Wands reversed can represent an untrustworthy friend so it could go hand in hand with the person I am talking about or even my work situation where as the people involved are not to be trusted and telling me to stop acting the Fool in trust and being blind to seeing the truth and start discerning the situation to get the most from it. Basically saying Michael pull your head out of your ass!
2. How has it Helped Me?
3 of Pentacles (Connecting with the 6 of Wands)
Pentacles - Earth, Grounded, Materialistic Realm
To me the three of pentacles tells me that it has helped me to understand and work with others. This has helped me to socialize and to be able to work within a group environment. It says that I learned from that Fool experience and was able to grow from it, to really be inspired from that time in my life and to focus on goals and projects that I desired to see implemented in my future. This Earthiness that manifested from the Fire aspect of the Fool has grown, To me it tells me that It has helped me to learn to not be so Fire in which I can burn those around me or even burn out but to channel my passions by grounding and organizing and finding a structure base and surrounding myself with people who would support my beliefs and passions and share similar interests to promote growth!
2 of Cups (reversed, Connectin with 3 of Cups)
See this is a very interesting pair to me. Two water cards so very fluid, very emotional. And yes there was a point in my life especially that point in the cups aspect that it reminds me of I was VERY VERY emotional! More emotional than I thought I could be. In this aspect I feel that it has helped me to weed out relationships that no longer serve me. I gave my heart to people that did not cherish what was being given and that was my doing and I accept full responsibility for that but it has helped me to be able to balance out my emotions, to discern and to understand the toxic relationships I had during that time and to get rid of the people who no longer were in my best interest.
2 of Pentacles (Connecting with Queen of Wands reversed)
hmm another Two and another Earth card that is connecting with a Fire card. Interesting indeed.
To me the Two of Pentacles is all about juggling life and learning to find the balance in ones life. Taking from the past and looking at the future and being in the present moment just finding that balance. So to me this card in its meaning has helped me to really learn to discern my words, how I speak to people, what to get myself into and how to get myself out of something. It tells me to learn to co-operate with the flow of energy. To bite my tongue when I know I need to and to speak up when I know I should as well.
3. How has it hurt me?
The Sun (Reversed, Connects with 6 of Wands/3 of Pentacles)
Major Arcana - Big Events, Major Moment in Life, Big Challenges
To me this states that I was so passionate about my work, my plans, accomplishments and I started projects and yet didn't get fully credited for what I did, A pattern of not being taken or used for what I truly am so Others got the credit for what I do and did and I just was on the sidelines and the sense of "defeat" comes to mind. I put a lot into the work I do and This does remind me of a time ago when I did psychic training, my teacher was not what she claimed to be and so I left, I went to Massage School and the teachers there were not what they claimed and I had to leave it seems that what I get passionate about there always seems to be an obstacle in the way and I always feel defeated and now that I am writing this and reading it I can see these patterns and its giving me great insight into how to balance that out.
8 of Wands (Reversed, Connecting 3 of Cups/2 of Cups)
This hurt is still fresh with me it seems. The 8 of Wands tells me that in this situation it hurt me by really slowing me down. It brought a lot to the forefront of my life and it almost shattered me when I had to release these people and for a time it just made everything slow. My hair business slowed down, my life slowed down and almost came to a halt, everything just seemed dull. The Flame or spark of life wasn't shining bright it was dull and dim. This definitely speaks of a hibernation almost hermit period; very stagnant.
Page of Swords (Reversed, Connecting Queen of Wands RX* 2 of Pentacles)
Swords - Air, Intellect, Wisdom, Bitchy Blunt Cards
This card tells me that it has hurt me in the sense of trust. My head is with the fae, I was day dreaming and off in the clouds and not really paying attention to what is laid before me but hoping and wishing for whats to come and so making a choice or decision without fully paying attention to whats going on has really hurt me in this. It tells me that not noticing the signs of people in my life have lead to much confusion, challenge and pain.
4. Where in my life do I need to be more Foolish?
The Hermit (Reversed)
I need to be more foolish in my Inner Life. The Hermit reversed tells me I need to pay more attention to my inner workings as there are great messages being given to me now but I am not hearing or receiving them due to blockages which to me can be from work and the busy energy of the holidays. So I need to be more like the fool in this respect to be able to just connect. Not to think about it or execute a plan but to just go for it. Get crazy and allow it to come forth. To me this is the saying "Just do it." Get out of the Logical and into the Spirit and let it flow!
The Hanged Man
This card tells me I need to sit in meditation and really contemplate what is going on. Just let it unfold and rid things that no longer serve me. I need to get rid of what is toxic fully and to let it go this time and not harbor any old ill wills or energies. I am going through a huge transition and it seems like its taking quite some time and not working but the truth is that it IS working and I need to act the Fool in this and just be care free and stop taking it so seriously.
King of Wands
This tells me that I need to be like the King, be able to look out at my past and learn from my experiences but not allow them to attach to me and dictate to me. I allow the experiences to come forth and rule with a creative heart and a kind heart. To take the fun and new energy from The Fool and forge it into my serious energy of the King. To take the creative energy I have as the Fool and ignite it with the King. So I need to act more like the fool in my leadership skills, in my aspect of my life that oversees my past, and is working to build management and leadership skills.
5. Where will the Fool not serve me?
8 of Swords
The Fool will not serve me when I am physically and intellectually blinded. This tells me that if old wounds arise and blockages come forth that the Fool will not serve me in working these out.
3 of Swords (Reversed)
This tells me that the Fool will not serve me when I am recovering from this emotional heart break period. The stage in life when I am/was coming out of it, it would of not served me to act the Fool. It would of hindered my progress.
6 of Swords (yet another swords card hmm....)
This tells me that if I am making a move for a different situation in the work place that I need not act the fool. Traveling or moving on to a different job moving towards the future i need to be on my game and acting the Fool in these plans would not benefit me AT ALL!
*note: I noticed that all these cards were swords cards so I am wondering if it would not be wise to act a fool in the suit of swords lol.
6. Where do I find the Fool outside Myself?
The Moon (Reversed)
I can see the Fool in the social interaction between my Friend and Myself. I see the Fool in the clarity of when truth is finally found out and the Sun shines upon the day. When Depression Lifts and truth is seen that is where the Fool is noticed. So when the Blindfold comes off as in the 8 of Swords, the Fool is seen immediately!
Ace of Wands
The Fool can be seen in the Gifts that are presented to my creativity. When someone comes into my life and presents me something that feeds my spirit or my creative juices that is when the Fool Manifests. When my emotional status balanced out and I was given and found stability and blessing in my true friends, that is when the Fool manifested.
Ten of Pentacles
The Fool Manifest outside myself in group efforts. When my co-workers gather, when family members meet that is where the Fool can arise outside myself. I see him constantly lol.
7. What gifts does it bring me?
7 of Wands (reversed)
He brings the gift of fluidity. Instead of having to combat and fight against the flow of passion and creativity; he teaches the ability to go with the flow and to let down the war attitude and just float to the inner workings of the inner child.
Queen of Cups (Reversed)
He brings to me the Gift of being able to see the present moment and the future. He has taught me to let the past be the past and to learn from the present and to be able to harness that energy to look into the future. To finally get control of emotions and to work with them instead of against them.
Four of Wands
He brings the gift of "wholeness" of family and blessing. To me he teaches how to overcome the obstacles and gossip of the family and work life and how to live in truth and happiness with my people in my life. He brings it full circle! What a blessing!
Anyways lol I hope my ramblings made sense, Its actually brought up some interesting things for me to think about. OMG This took me forever! It has given me a lot of insight though and has taught me a lot and wow I am just amazed as to how everything unfolded! YAY!!
I Radiate Love!
I have been playing around with Photoshop as of late and I truly hope to learn so much more about it as the days pass! It is a wonderful tool and so much fun!
The more that I experience life and the development of the soul the more that I truly understand that it is all about Love! When things flow well if you take the time to breathe in and listen you can feel the energy the vibration of love around you and within you.
I know when I am reading Tarot and in tune with spirit I can feel the vibration of love around me. I'll be reading for a person and just going on and on as spirit speaks and I just let it flow and then when all is said and done I pause for a moment and at that moment I am very clear and serene. That is when I truly feel the vibration of Love around as it had been there all the time through the reading guiding me.
So my affirmation is "I Radiate Love!" affirm this daily and before you move on with your day listen to what energy you call to yourself when you do affirm this. Be calm, be still, breathe in and listen!
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Who's A Product Whore? I AM! err... WAS
Yes I am a stylist and yes that's my excuse!
Well... It WAS my excuse until TODAY! Yes I know that everything that we keep has a vibration and effects our spirit and our physical environment. So today I decided to clean out my bathroom cupboards *insert daunting music here.*
So I open the Cupboards and seriously I think I had 15 cans of hairspray fall out at once! I don't even use that much hairspray let alone enough to have 15 CANS!! I had three baskets full of product, I txt a friend of mine asking if she needs anything and she screamed she needs everything. So I got a Bag *go green bag wooot* and I started filling it up. I think I gave her all my hairspray, shine spray, Wax,, Curl Booster, Straightening Creme, and sooo much more! After filling a bag of Hair Products up for my friend *hmm I sort of feel like Hair Product Santa omy* I decided to toss out what I didnt need. I looked at it and said Nope I havent used it in a while it goes! So I now have more room in my Bathroom for new energy and it just puts me in a higher vibration so that I may manifest my desires! SOOOO Excited!
So I have shed a lot of weight in Hair Product! And I think my next goal will be my room. I need to re-organize my library and get rid of the dust bunnies that may be hiding in the corners and and OOH toss out old magazines!
On A Roll!
Stay Light and Have Fun!
Well... It WAS my excuse until TODAY! Yes I know that everything that we keep has a vibration and effects our spirit and our physical environment. So today I decided to clean out my bathroom cupboards *insert daunting music here.*
So I open the Cupboards and seriously I think I had 15 cans of hairspray fall out at once! I don't even use that much hairspray let alone enough to have 15 CANS!! I had three baskets full of product, I txt a friend of mine asking if she needs anything and she screamed she needs everything. So I got a Bag *go green bag wooot* and I started filling it up. I think I gave her all my hairspray, shine spray, Wax,, Curl Booster, Straightening Creme, and sooo much more! After filling a bag of Hair Products up for my friend *hmm I sort of feel like Hair Product Santa omy* I decided to toss out what I didnt need. I looked at it and said Nope I havent used it in a while it goes! So I now have more room in my Bathroom for new energy and it just puts me in a higher vibration so that I may manifest my desires! SOOOO Excited!
So I have shed a lot of weight in Hair Product! And I think my next goal will be my room. I need to re-organize my library and get rid of the dust bunnies that may be hiding in the corners and and OOH toss out old magazines!
On A Roll!
Stay Light and Have Fun!
Sunday, December 13, 2009
The Journey Begins
It seems that I enjoy Writing as much as I enjoy talking so I figured I would create a blog to express myself and share what Spirit moves me to share. I started this blog because Spirit invited me to take a walk on a path that I desired, A Path of teaching, of expression and creativity. I was in a moment of clarity and was able to listen and at that clear moment I heard spirit speak. I was instructed to create a 6 month Psychic Development course to share with those who will seek it out.
Soo... At first I was a bit hesitant but let that energy roll off and I embodied spirit. I went and got my Notebook, I got my handy dandy Pen and I started writing. I didn't think about what I was writing too much, I just let it flow. There were points that I left blank only to fill them in later. What follows is the outline that I with the help of the Divine Spirit fluidly came up with.
Psychic Development Course
Duration: 6 Months, 24 Weeks
1 Module per month
4 Lessons per Module
Daily Exercises for each Module
1st Month:
I personally have invested a lot of dedication, time and study to my path and my psychic skills and I continue to do so. Writing this course is another aspect of study and dedication to my skills and I just want to make sure that the passion I have for this is offered in a respectable manner to all those who seek it out.
I will have to meditate more on the Price aspect of this journey.
I am indeed truly blessed and excited to see this project manifest and come together. I know this is definitely a new journey for me and I am looking forward to it. I am in gratitude for all those who have helped me reach my goals and have inspired me to be the Spiritual being that I am. I Love you all!
Soo... At first I was a bit hesitant but let that energy roll off and I embodied spirit. I went and got my Notebook, I got my handy dandy Pen and I started writing. I didn't think about what I was writing too much, I just let it flow. There were points that I left blank only to fill them in later. What follows is the outline that I with the help of the Divine Spirit fluidly came up with.
Psychic Development Course
Duration: 6 Months, 24 Weeks
1 Module per month
4 Lessons per Module
Daily Exercises for each Module
1st Month:
- Grounding
- Aura/Chakra Work
- Running Energy
- Connecting to the Divine Source
- Heart Center
- Thought Patterns & Beliefs
- Desire
- Creation
- Movement
- Acting in Accord
- The Health Factor
- Self-Care
- Understanding Spirit, The Clairs
- The Guides
- Angels
- Embodying the Oracle
- Gratitude
- All are One
- Forgiveness
- Seeing with Divine Eyes
- Honesty, Integrity, Respect & Confidentiality
- Building your support team
- You! As a Psychic
- The Gift
I personally have invested a lot of dedication, time and study to my path and my psychic skills and I continue to do so. Writing this course is another aspect of study and dedication to my skills and I just want to make sure that the passion I have for this is offered in a respectable manner to all those who seek it out.
I will have to meditate more on the Price aspect of this journey.
I am indeed truly blessed and excited to see this project manifest and come together. I know this is definitely a new journey for me and I am looking forward to it. I am in gratitude for all those who have helped me reach my goals and have inspired me to be the Spiritual being that I am. I Love you all!
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Poetry
So I was blessed to have been given a great piece of musical inspiration just a few minutes ago and It inspired me to write. I haven't written a poem in ages and this is a sort of channeled inspiration.
Have you shed tears today?
And did it help?
Did it help you leave the past behind
did it heal the wounds that seem ever gaping
did they strike the pool of life
create the ripple of time from whence you came
will you take the hand of god who hath let out for you
did you feel the wind today?
Across your face, and did it sting?
Did the pain remind you of the day that you cannot take back
did it hurt but did you love
Will you remember, will you forgive
Can't you see that this is what they have tried to tell you
To release you from the shackles that you have so readily placed upon yourself
Have you shed tears today, have you shed blood
On your knees before the altar, so alone and yet connected to all
there is a dark place that can be taken, that can consume the soul
cold tears upon my cheek run down splitting my skin as its icy torment never ceases
Will it help?
Once Risen, twice born, You have slayed death and yet you long for it
Fear has stricken a heart of gold, it has created a dark space within one with a soul so old.
I ask my dear kin, take the hand of god
Rise up once again, the Radiant Light of the goddess shine upon you
Take your rightful place
Open the pathway, see through the doors
Shed your tears but let them heal not cut
Remember
Have you shed tears today?
And did it help?
Did it help you leave the past behind
did it heal the wounds that seem ever gaping
did they strike the pool of life
create the ripple of time from whence you came
will you take the hand of god who hath let out for you
did you feel the wind today?
Across your face, and did it sting?
Did the pain remind you of the day that you cannot take back
did it hurt but did you love
Will you remember, will you forgive
Can't you see that this is what they have tried to tell you
To release you from the shackles that you have so readily placed upon yourself
Have you shed tears today, have you shed blood
On your knees before the altar, so alone and yet connected to all
there is a dark place that can be taken, that can consume the soul
cold tears upon my cheek run down splitting my skin as its icy torment never ceases
Will it help?
Once Risen, twice born, You have slayed death and yet you long for it
Fear has stricken a heart of gold, it has created a dark space within one with a soul so old.
I ask my dear kin, take the hand of god
Rise up once again, the Radiant Light of the goddess shine upon you
Take your rightful place
Open the pathway, see through the doors
Shed your tears but let them heal not cut
Remember
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- Michael
- I Am Psychic, Medium, Spiritual Worker, Healer, Angel Communicator, Witch, Writer, Lover of life, and so much more! I enjoy Writing and reading the Tarot! Tarot and Psychic Training are my Passions! If you would like a Reading please visit My Website.